SO FRUSTRATED!!!

So this is what's been going on and why I'm so freaking frustrated!! I was supposed to see the psychiatrist on the 29th of September but due to lack of funds we didn't have enough gas in the car to go to Heidelberg, we got paid on the 30th!! I was so freaking pissed!! So I had to reschedule my appointment for November 1st and I have to reschedule my appointment with Dr. Kaula because I can't see her until after I see my psychiatrist, but when I called to reschedule and try to get the appointment on November 1st just at a latter time, they told me that they didn't schedule appointments that far out and I'd have to call again the next week. I feel like I'm getting the run around ya know?!!! At this rate I won't have the surgery until after Christmas!!! I want it done NOW....NOW NOW NOW!!!!!!! Ok now that I've got that rant out of my system I should tell you that I'm not really sure how I'm doing it but I'm losing weight I've gone from 235 to 229.8 since my first visit with Dr. Kaula. It's weird because the only thing I'm doing different is going walking in the evening with my friend Kim. and we've only done that twice. Well I guess that will show the good doctor that I can lose weight I just don't ever keep it off and I always wind up sabotaging myself. One of the reasons I've started walking is because I read somewhere that it's always good to exercise before you have surgery because it will help you recover more speedily. Plus it's nice to get into the habit, as soon as they say it's ok I'm going to be exercising like a mad woman, I want to try to nip the saggy skin in the bud before it actually gets there lol. Well that's all for now.